We Trust God

“We trust God” is easy to say until it is tested. As she started her 16th year of teaching,  Cindie* faced the toughest struggle of her life.

Would she trust God?

At her yearly mammogram in January of 2015, the radiologist spotted a suspicious area on her left breast. Her biopsy results came back benign, which relieved Cindie’s fears.

* Her real name, used with permission.

Just Had a Mammogram

In July, she discovered a lump in her left breast. Her first thought was, “It can’t be anything. I just had a mammogram five months ago.”

Her gynecologist felt the one-inch lump Cindie discovered, but he thought it might be hormonal or menopausal. Not wanting to take any risks, he sent Cindie to have an ultrasound and a core biopsy.

When her gynecologist called her to share the news she had breast cancer, Cindie remembers not being able to breathe. The gynecologist said, “You need to see a breast surgeon as soon as possible.”

Things I Would Miss

Cindie’s family

Cindie broke down in tears when she shared the news with her husband, Todd. “I’m going to die. People with cancer die. I immediately thought about all the things I would miss with my children,” Cindie remembers. He held her and comforted her.

A late Monday afternoon phone call  to a breast surgeon would surely be returned on Tuesday morning, but much to her surprise, they returned her call within minutes. A Tuesday appointment was available.

We Trust God

Cindie’s first question to the doctor at her appointment was, “Am I going to die?”

The doctor quickly replied, “No one wants cancer. But if you have to have cancer, breast cancer is the one you want to have because of the awareness and the considerable research.”

After her exam, the nurse said, “Tell your children you are going to be fine.” Then she gave Cindie a piece of advice that reset her thinking: “If you don’t believe you’re going to be fine, you’ll project that thought to them.”

She and Todd sat down with their children, Emma and James, and said, “Your mom is going to be OK, but she has breast cancer.”  After they had a moment to process the information, Cindie confidently said, “We’ve walked this earth as a family saying we trust God, and now we decide if we do.”

Cindie’s family clung to the words of Psalm 9:10:

Triple Negative Breast Cancer

When Cindie met with the breast surgeon, she learned the tumor had to be removed. Another set of labs and a biopsy of the lymph nodes under her left arm were done to determine what type of cancer she had and exactly where it was located.

In August of 2015, a definitive diagnosis of triple negative breast cancer was given.

Hearing the specific name of her cancer was very difficult and surreal. “I sat in the medical oncologist room crying. As I looked around the waiting room, I realized everyone there has cancer. I wondered where I fit in the range of healthy to sick,” she remembers.

A Mission

Cindie’s first chemo treatment

When the nurse told her chemotherapy would be needed, Cindie remembers making a decision to fight. “I felt I had a mission. If this was the way it had to be, I decided I COULD do it and I WOULD do it. Even though I didn’t want to be bald, I knew I could be bald. I had so much support and people loving on me. I knew I could fight.”

At her first chemo appointment in August, Cindie was nervous because she didn’t know if it would hurt or burn. She experienced some pain and nausea after the first treatment.

Grew to be Thankful

Cindie with her wig

Between the first and second chemo treatments, Cindie met with a wig specialist. She said, “You can just let your hair fall out or you can shave it.”

Cindie opted to shave her head as she wanted to be in control. With her sister, best friend, and daughter by her side, Cindie had her hair shaved. “It was very emotional to lose my hair.”

“People told me I needed to name my wig. I couldn’t think of anything nice to call her, because I was so angry. But I grew to be thankful for her.”

Finally Surrendered and Felt at Peace

Cindie is a positive person, and she knew in order to fight this battle well, she needed to keep a positive mindset. She soaked in the encouraging calls, texts, and visits from family and friends who believed she would be healed.

“I read Max Lucado’s book You’ll Get Through This and a daily devotional from Jesus Today. I knew I would have to fight against mental and spiritual attacks. I did that by journaling, which allowed me to combat untruth with truth. Part of that was the worry I felt about what would happen to Todd and our children if I should die. I finally surrendered and felt at peace that God would truly care for them.”

Author’s note: My purpose for this overcomer web site is to give encouragement, inspiration, and meaningful advice from those who’ve overcome life’s tough challenges. When Cindie told me how many times she read and reread overcomer stories when she first was told her diagnosis and during the months of chemo, surgeries, and radiation, I was overwhelmed with joy.

“The stories, especially Jule’s story, encouraged me to stay positive and fight,” she shared.

Couldn’t Find Any Tumors

At each chemo appointment, Cindie met with her oncologist who told her the tumor was getting smaller and smaller. She had begun planning her double mastectomy surgery since her treatment was going so well.

Until she hit a bump in the road in October of 2015 when she got pneumonia. A week and a half stay in the hospital delayed a chemo treatment, which put her behind schedule for her surgery. “I hit a bad low, because I couldn’t get a blood transfusion due to the fever I couldn’t break.”

Making Strides Against Breast Cancer event

Cindie’s co-workers organized a group to walk at the Making Strides Against Breast Cancer event. Even though she wasn’t able to attend, knowing her family and friends were walking for a cure filled her with hope.

Best Possible Outcome

Her last chemo treatment was in December. At her ultrasound appointment two weeks later, her oncologist shared this news: “I couldn’t find any tumors, so the chemo did it’s job. But we can’t assume it’s completely gone until surgery.”

In January of 2016, Cindie had the double mastectomy surgery. “You’ve had the best possible outcome. We did not find any cancer in your breast tissue or your lymph nodes,” the breast surgeon told her.

Her six weeks of recovery went very well. Cindie honestly thought all that was left to do in her breast cancer journey was the reconstruction surgery.

Playing a Game of Odds

Unfortunately, her oncologist recommended she consult with a radiation oncologist before scheduling the reconstruction surgery. Initially, Cindie was confused as she was told having a mastectomy would mean no need for radiation.

The radiation oncologist reminded her treatment for cancer was really playing a game of odds, and when she looked back she would want to know she did everything she could to get the best outcome. Cindie agreed and endured 28 rounds of radiation.

In July of 2016, Cindie had her implant surgery. Finally, her fight against breast cancer was over. However, Cindie shared this insight: “The hardest part of cancer starts when it is over. I still think about it every day, but I’m not actively doing anything about it anymore.”

Trusted God

Any time we go through difficult times, it’s important to reflect on the lessons we’ve learned. Cindie was eager to share what she’s learned in the hopes it encourages and inspires someone who is currently going through a difficult time.

Todd and Cindie in New York

“I realized I had never fully trusted God. We decided to trust God, and it grew our faith. I learned I never had control of my life. I had to make a daily decision to let God be in control. When my family and I did that, we all experienced His peace.”

“I learned cancer is much harder on those who love you than on you. Todd demonstrated the depth of his love for me every single day. My journey definitely strengthened our marriage.”

“As Christians, we are called to be the hands and feet of Jesus. So many people cared for me. I had to humble myself and accept their help, because I didn’t want to rob them of their ministry. Since then, I have been more aware of the needs of others and how I can help,” Cindie shares.

Leave a reply (below): Cindie marked her one year cancer free anniversary with this video. She talks about how her journey with cancer gave her opportunities to trust God. He was with her through it all.

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22 Responses to We Trust God

  • Tracy Todd says:

    Very inspiring story Cindie!!! I’m a stage 4 warrior princess myself
    And your story reminds of
    Gods promises and that WE CANT GIVE UP!!!
    God bless you and your family!!

  • Emily Yancey says:

    Thank you for sharing your story, Cindie! I’m so glad that God sees fit to keep you here with us!!! You are a blessing to all who know you. And you are so right, it is when we face hard times that we get to put our faith into action. May God continue to bless you and your awesome family! Love you!

  • Amelia Ann Norman says:

    Thank you, thank you, thank you for this wonderful sharing video!!! I have a long time dear friend and a double 2nd cousin who both have had the same breast cancer as yours was. They are both doing well now, praises to God!!! I will be sending them this email today to read your story and I know they will love it and be encouraged by it!!!
    I look forward to meeting you in the future! I am now one of the Overcomers, too, as of last night!
    Yes, His mercies and grace are new every morning for us!!! Lam 3:23

    • Cindie says:

      Thank you for sharing Ann. The news of your friend and cousin is very encouraging to me. Welcome to the Overcomer Club!!

  • Leo Regular says:

    For we walk by Faith not by sight. Cindie you are one amazing Warrior. As I stood with you in prayer and Faith. I knew God was pleased that we stood on the promises of his Word. Love you forever my friend.
    The Favor of God rests on you and your amazing family..

  • Cheryl Thornton says:

    I knew much of your story but reading it altogether was so inspiring! You are a mighty woman of God and you have the scars to prove it!

  • Kyle says:

    Cindie is an inspiration to all who are blessed to know her. But more than that , she is a testimony to her trust and faith in our Great Physician! Melony, thank you for representing our friend so faithfully, and for inspiring all of us to be overcomers!

  • Ginger Stainback Giddens says:

    Cindie, you are an ispiration!! God is so good. Your life, this journey and your faith are powerful testimonies! Breast cancer was the second cancer Mom (and God) overcame. It is always a blessing to see how God works and how He become so present. You remain in my prayers.

  • Jennifer Decker says:

    Cindie, you are such an inspiration! I have admired and looked up to you since the first day we met! I am blessed to have you in my life and I know you will continue to bless countless others! I love you, dear and precious friend. You are truly an amazing overcomer!💕

  • Kristin Myers says:

    You inspire me Cindie – a Godly warrior, kind friend and spiritual wife and mom. So much appreciation, love and support coming your way!

  • Vickie Dalton says:

    You walked a difficult road with God’s grace. You blessed me every day. Your story was so honest. I love and appreciate you so much. Love the part where you had to put your trust in God to the test. We all can say that we trust……..you are my hero!

  • Karen Henshaw says:

    Such an inspiration and blessing. Thank you for your guidance!

  • Jeff says:

    I am blessed to know you Cindie!!! Jeff

  • Nicole Rhoads says:

    Thank you for sharing your story. It is an amazing testimony that you relied on God so much during your battle and how you continue to give Him the glory. What an inspiration!

  • Lisa Kittrell says:

    I am very proud of your strength and your commitment to share your story to help others. I will never forget the day you called to tell me your news. As college friends and roommates, we shared a lot of firsts; marriage, babies and even the loss of a parent. But this first shook us to our core. You taught us to put it all in God’s hands and focus on staying positive. You are amazing and I’m so thankful to call you my friend! I love you!

  • Julie Lester says:

    Reminded again what a special woman you are Cindie! So thankful to know you and your amazing story of trust and faithfulness! So glad God has restored you and given you a testimony of His greatness! What an inspiration to the families at school and all who are blessed to know you!

  • Lisa Kubes says:

    Love you, Cindie! So thankful for you and for the way God is using you to share with others. Your faith and love for the Lord has always been such an inspiration to me. Grateful to have you in my life. You make me smile!!

  • Mary Anthony Nolan says:

    To God be the Glory!! Love you, Cindie!!!

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